I am really struggling with my 10yo behaviour and development, all his life he has never really had any hobbies or interests, since he was a toddler he's had fleeting interests with things never really bothering with anything for long. Was diagnosed Autistic at 4. He is fully verbal but doesn't really have conversations. This sentence makes me feel so guilty but it's true that I just don't know how to bond with him especially now he's growing up and same 'play' activities ect aren't interesting like when he was younger. The only thing he does is play on the phone and watch YouTube (my fault I know) he's had gaming consoles taken away because of the level of rage. I literally don't know what else to do because he doesn't engage with anything. His behavior has become SO challenging recently e.g swearing constantly and not following rules because 'he doesn't care' I feel like I'm constantly telling him off because he's constantly doing things that I need to tell him not to or correct in some way and his attitude makes it so hard for me to remain positive and I've become so snappy and miserable and bitter.
He has a younger brother who's 9 and the contrast is so huge and makes my bond with 10yo feel even more minimal and sometimes hopeless. I know the lack of bond will definitely go into his behaviour and how he feels and it breaks my heart to think he feels upset in anyway. Everything I try doesn't work and I've gotten to a point where I'm just so burnt out I don't have it in most of the time.
Has anyone else had experience with this?? Any advice on how I can strengthen my bond with my child