I'm finding summer hoildays hard. She is so full on and needs watching constantly she also struggles with her sleep when not at her special school. I'm just feeling really sad her being non verbal. I usually feel sad around her birthday in January but it's hitting me in the summer , I've seen a few times children that are her age and I used to meet up with them and their mum, when she was a baby but had to stop as I found it so upsetting them being so different at around 2 and just seeing them lately talking to friends and their mums is just really upsetting me. We tried to go away in hotel and it was disaster so won't be able to do hotel again. I'm limited to where I can take her when out and about in hoildays. I also have a 4 year old that's typical currently but showing traits but not on scale of elder daughter. And I feel sad for her missing out on things. I'm just sad 😔 how much my daughter non vernal and autism effects are family. Even reading some posts on here I think dam it why can't my daughter have struggles with friends (she has non, not interested in others) just feeling crap