I was really embarrassed by ds2 yesterday. He pushed over a toddler in the playground and got shouted at by a man I assume was the kid's dad.
I hate it when ds2 does this - goes up to other people and hurts them for no apparent reason. I'm pretty sure I've shown him that it's unacceptable behaviour but I do feel it reflects on me somehow. I feel it might be connected to the seizures or the AEDs or it might not be. It's so hard to separate out what's going on with them, but his behaviour certainly got significantly worse after he'd had his first lot of tonic-clonic seizures, although I thought he'd calmed down recently. However, he had some kind of seizure at school yesterday (I couldn't work out what, from the description the teacher gave me) so it may have been he was still feeling rough from that. Or he might have just been feeling like doing something horrible to someone else who couldn't fight back .
I was in the playground with both sons and they were playing with someone from ds1's school, so after I'd apologised to the parents and told ds2 off in no uncertain terms, the other mum just suggested we go out of the playground and into the park. This worked just fine and there were no more incidents. As the other mum pointed out, ds2 had been running around with the older boys playing quite an aggressive game, but there's still no excuse really.
I just wanted to share my mortification here where other parents might understand. I know lots of you have to deal with far worse, every day, but I felt so bad about it all. "What did he do that for?" Well, I wish I knew.