My son is 4 and half and in Primary 1 at school. He is due to be assessed for Autism but I am 100 percent certain that he is autistic.
As he is getting older, I am finding him so difficult. I am a single parent and he is my only child.
I do have help from his dad who takes him 3 nights a week.
But I feel when I do have him, I just want away from him all the time. He is so awkward and difficult, he has numerous meltdowns during the day and they could be for anything from putting his coat on to telling him we have to go out. It's just constant crying and moaning and saying no to anything. He has now started to make these weird noises which he never did before.
He can talk but it is very limited, he can say what he wants to do and where he wants to go. But just everything is no, he is obsessed with numbers and letters and all he wants to do is watch numberblocks or alphablocks all day. He doesn't play with any of his toys anymore. I feel like he has no personality, all he does is recite the numberblock songs on repeat. He doesn't answer any questions like what did you do at school.
He's also up at half 5 most mornings and wanting to watch Numberblocks or Alphablocks.
I feel so awful saying this but he's just such an unlikeable child, he has definitely regressed in his talking and I feel like his autism is becoming more pronounced in him.
My mum and sister have pointed out that he definitely plays me up more than he does anyone else. I feel so guilty complaining about him when I only have one child but its just so hard. My parents are in their late 70s so they can't really help.
I feel like I need a week away from him and I am just so sad at how his personality is developing or not developing.