sorry it's me again with another question and I know I am not answering any other postings it's just that dd is my first child and I am completely new to this world. Unfortunately the birth of my beautiful dd has made me realise what a priviliged life I have led the last 30 odd years. Many of you kindly responded to my post last week about our devastating consultation with GOSH. It's just that I have finally realised that she was born like this and the damage did not occur due to the birth. Though she went to NICU on day two she did not suffer a lack of oxygen Since she was born in July I thought this but I have come to accept this especially as GOSH are talking about getting the genetisists involved. For months I have been hopeful about the plasticity of the brain but I feel we have no hope as if the brain is damaged then making new pathways to another part of the damaged brain is not going to help. The 2 MRIs showed no damage but I think it must be what they refer to the higher plane is damaged ie all the processing. I think this is one of the reasons why we felt the consultation was so devastating because her occipital lobe and visual cortex work-she had been to the opthamology dept in Oct- but her brain is not processing this info hence she is blind. Like I said on an earlier post she does smile and will grab things but her smiling seems more on touch and with silly voices and doesn't always happen.We now are starting to realise she doewsn't even know us. She can lift from prone and feeds well though her tongue gets in the way. Needmorecoffee you were right-it definitely sounds like athetoid cp. I know I am asking you all the impossible- hey the docs are not giving us any hope/answers it's just I've read all the research and we just don't seem to have anything to cling onto. My work colleagues posted me the 'Blue Sky July' book and I am just like the woman in it except I am turning to the internet for the cure! Sorry for my rambling -one day we may reach acceptance of the situation but right now I can't see this happening. Thanks for reading xx