Feel on verge of Breakdown

[Anon8104]

Very complex (as described by professionals!) Autistic DD whom we adore....
I’m not sure I can keep going. I feel so low, I can only see things getting worse with H increasing work hours and DD change of schools, Summer Hols etc.

I am surrounded by family who have many children, hold fantastic jobs, kids doing well and excelling at everything, school, extra-curricular. I feel useless. I can’t work, DD seems to hate me most of the time. I hate that I am like this currently, playing the victim, when it’s not about me.

I feel so fed up and dread each day. I wake up and perhaps can spend the first half hour happy and then I fill with anxiety, sadness and dread. Dd is only in school part time, which is better than previously, but it’s not easy and exhausting for her and love myself.

H helps where he can and is amazing, but it’s hard.

I feel so rubbish.

I totally understand, my 4 year old has a genetic disorder that makes life very very difficult for us as a family and i honestly cant see how life will be enjoyable when we can barely leave the house with her.
Big hugs, you're not alone.
Its also sad how little posts on the special needs section get answered compared to the general parenting part, its just serves to make us feel more isolated I think!

I have a similar situation.
What helps us is carers, and putting plans in place for respite- all of which takes ages.
Kissing with social workers is time consuming and mentally demanding but I know deep down whilst I just about cope now, the day is not far off when I don’t be able to do it, mentally without feeling overwhelming resentment or physically with the aggression, it helps knowing I’m planning for this.
That helps me carry on.

Liaising not kissing!

@Anon8104 hi there , just thought I'd ask how things are now ?