Hi all,
I’m feeling a little down. I know that my DD is the prime focus, and her mental health, happiness and future are what’s important, but I feel a little sad abs guilty for the self-pity!!
DD is Autistic (what would be described as high functioning) - but very complex and a huge range of needs, challenges.
She is our only child and we will not be having any more children. I feel so sad that we are not going to experience “normal” (sorry, don’t like to use that word) but a normal experience of parenting and childhood. She is not affectionate and has never wanted hugs. She struggles with emotion and also says very, very nasty things to us. She hardly can cope with going out, so even prior to lockdown, we struggle to do much enjoyable as a family, despite trying.
She can’t really speak to family, so not the usual relationships there either.
I am feeling guilty as I’ve found myself in tears today, over family and friends posting photos of their lovely, local walks as a family. I hate feeling so jealous.
I also don’t think we’ll manage to get DD back to school, so will either “unschool” or try an attempt at “specialist school placement”.
After all the moaning, how do you continue to feel positive. I am sick of trying to be upbeat and positive each day and about the future.