Hey everyone just joined the site. I am expecting my 3rd little boy who is due on Dec 11th. I am a mother already to my 2 year old son and my 1 year old son. I have never joined before now but have just felt so lonely the last few months. My eldest son has suspected Autism (paediatrician suspects on a moderate to severe level). His diagnosis has been held up due to the pandemic and he has had most of his therapies temporarily suspended. He has been having so many meltdowns and I am so panicked about how I will manage when baby number 3 comes along. His behaviour has became increasingly violent. His even violent towards his 1 year old brother. I honestly feel concerned that he may try and hurt his new baby brother. I feel like nobody understands how stressed I am. My partner constantly complains about being tired after working 11 hour shifts but dismisses me anytime I try to talk about how exhausted I am or how difficult my day has been. He looked after the boys recently for me to go to the hairdresser and then went on about it for days as they apparently didn’t behave very well. He makes it out as if me staying at home is so easy all the time and as if I just sit and do nothing. I think I am just hormonal and maybe taking things to heart to much. I just felt like I needed to vent as I don’t have anyone to vent too. Honestly just feels like nobody cares sometimes. I feel like due to my sons behaviour I have became isolated from everyone because they can’t be bothered having us over (before COVID) or doing anything with us (again before COVID). It upsets me as I know it isn’t my sons fault. I am intending to join a local parenting support group but due to the current world situation I didn’t get a chance. Sorry again for ranting. Just needed to get this all off my chest.