Just need to vent

[AltogetherAndrews]

Hi, I’m on my way to work and just need to talk, trying really hard not to cry, need to hold it together.

DS is 11 today, has ASD and ADHD. He has been really excited about his birthday for over a week, got up early to open his presents and there was something missing from one of them, cue a massive meltdown, and then half an hour later he is heartbroken that he overreacted, really apologetic.

He is ok most of the time and I am always adamant that there is nothing wrong with him, he is just different, but finding it hard to be positive today. I hated myself as a child, had really low self esteem and always swore that I wouldn’t let my children feel that way, but he is sitting there hating himself for something that he can’t control in his Birthday.

It’s my fault, I made him, and I made him broken.

On way back from my meeting, which didn’t go well, and dreading his birthday party tonight. I just want him to be happy and sometimes that doesn’t feel possible.

I hope that your ds enjoyed the rest of his birthday and his party.

Birthdays and Christmas must be difficult for our dc. There’s so much build up and expectation and then, sometimes, things don’t go to plan or they have a bad day and we feel like it’s a disaster but it it doesn’t have to be. Things can be turned around or we can choose to highlight the good things that did happen and learn what we need to change for next time.

Don’t beat yourself up. He’s not broken, he’s just different

Thanks. The party was pretty awful, but now it’s over and he is back to himself, and I’m feeling better. I know you are right, he isn’t broken. I just lost sight of things for a day.