I can't cope anymore

[mumto1db]

Hello everyone.
I'm posting on here as a last resort. I'm at breaking point. I honestly feel like I'm going to jump off a bridge or something.
My son is 6. He has been diagnosed with tourettes syndrome. He is permanently in a bad mood, violent, doesn't sleep, refuses to do absolutely anything (I even have to get him dressed). Everyday is a battle. Im so exhausted and it is just me and him 24/7. I have no support off no body. The only break I get is when he is at school, and even then I'm at university. I've tried getting a doctor's apt every day this week and haven't been able to get one. My bulimia has appeared back in my life and is slowly taking over me again as a way to cope with the stress. I just feel like such a bad parent because nothing I do makes him happy at all. We can't go anywhere because he refuses to leave the house, we don't do anything, I can't laugh or play with him because he goes in a bad mood and starts hitting. He destroys furniture, throws things out of his bedroom window, and his attitude is disgusting.
I'm reaching the point where I can't stand to be around him and as much as I love him, I hate him. What can I do?
I don't want to live like this anymore.

I'm so sorry that you are both having such a stressful time at the moment

I don't really know anything about how Tourette's presents but it sounds like your ds is really stressed. Are there any particular triggers that are setting him off at home? Is he maybe having a hard time at school then taking it out on you when he gets back?

It can be very challenging parenting a child with behavioural difficulties so please try not to be too hard on yourself. It sounds like you need help and support, do you know what is available in your local area? If you look on you local offer online it should tell you what services you can access.

I’m sorry too that things are so hard for you right now. I agree with liv that it sounds like anxiety on his part; how is he at school? What does he enjoy doing at home?

How was he diagnosed? Were you part of an early help team? If so I would get in touch with any contact you have there and tell them you are struggling and need support. Were you offered any parenting courses to offer techniques to cope?

I would keep trying to get a doctors appointment. You need to try and get a handle on your bulimia and stress levels.

You are stronger than you think you are. Hang in there