Cant help but feel 'jealous' of my friend

[lourobert]

i have a 15 month old with special needs. My friend of 20 years had a little boy 4 months after me. We always joked about having kids together and them going to the same school and being best friends blah blah......!!

Since my sons problems and delays started emerging I have totally cut off from her and her son. and although i feel dreadful about this its just hurts too much to see her enjoying being a mum and doing 'normal' mummy things whilst im stressing about getting to hospital appointments!!

She says she understands but she has said some very spiteful things in the past.

I love my son dearly but I cant help feel jealous of her. I wish i could be doing the things that she is.

Just needed to let hat off my chest as I know that there isnt an answer. Just wanted to share I suppose.

Do yu think these feelings will change?

I agree, good thread. Jimjams, did the CAT thingy work, did MN send you my email?

Just found it! Apologies-it was buried in my inbox. Ds1 has been up since 1am (me too!) so I've emailed you in reply, but might not get back to email until tomorrow.....

Cheers, will be in touch then.

One thing id say though is you truely do find out who your friends are. the people I thought i could rely on just seem to have disappeared and contact me 'when they fancy a night out' and dont wanna go alone.

One friend who went to uni years ago to do medicine makes the effort to call me 2/3 times a week, she comes down whever she can and shes straight round. Ive another firend who I drifted from once we left college who I bumped into a few weeks ago. Her dd aged 3 took such a shining to Louis, that they now come round regularly and it great as its like they dont see 'louis' as being any different.

On the other hand Ive a friend who was straight round when he was born, bought him little things when she saw them but funnily now we dont see her at all....!

Wow, what a ride we're all on huh- certainly didnt read about any of this in the handbook!! I know there will be positives out of all this and I guess Im only just starting on this road. Im sat here writing this as my little boy is sat in him tumble form- looking all cool reading to go swimming and I just absolutly LOVE HIM to bits.

I certianly wont feel bad about avoiding certain people and situations that make me feel crappy....!