Need to vent. I have 2 children, both boys, 13 and 2. Both have severe autism. Eldest has severe speech disorder, receptive and expressive levels of a 5 year old and not easily understood. Also severe learning disability and ADHD. The youngest has yet to say a word, has no understanding and has so many more sensory issues than his brother and is so repetitive. Both are so challenging, constant meltdowns, danger to themselves, need constant 1:1 supervision. We are totally exhausted and to be quite frank Im in a really negative place about it all. I know jealousy and negative thoughts are not helping and are irrational. But I question everyday why everyone else I see deserves to have a happy, normal life (and they seem to take it for granted too!) whilst I have been dealt a really devastating hand, twice. I do the whole ASD support group and come away wondering why my situation is so much worse. Everyone else has 1 affected child, almost always high functioning, with NT siblings. Thats how much of a negative place Im in - Im even resentful of other parents of children with SEN!
Is anyone in the same situation? SOmetimes it feels as though its just me :(