Should I...shouldn't I?..................

[anniebear]

We have a kind of coffee morning at Grace and Ellies mainstream School on a Monday morning for parents

Every few weeks they have speakers, maybe a Teacher in to talk about helping your child with its reading etc, or a pamper morning etc etc

I have been pencilled in for Oct 2nd to talk about What happened with Ellie....... 'our story' I suppose

Half of me wants to do it, I don't know why. Of course I want to tell people of the dangers of Meningitis, but I feel it's something I should do. I don't know, prove something to myself, that I could do it. I have no confidence at all

The thought of this terrifies me. I have never spoke in front of people before (there won't be many, maybe 10?) like that and I know the days leading up to it I will feel so nervous and the night before and the morning I will feel sick

I wouldn't even have to have notes. I could tell 'our story' backwards. But am terrified at the thought of it

I was going to e mail the Meningitis Trust and get leaflets and symptoms cards etc off them to take...

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry not really Special Needs!!

Well done you.

Could you focus on one of the parents you know at first anyway, till you get your confidence and try and convince yourself it's a 1-2-1 converstaion? They will be lovely, I'm sure you'll feel so proud of yourself afterwards

aww very brave anniebear. I think your story will really move people. Don;t feel like you "should", (and back out if you want to), but I think it would be really good if you did (and it may stop people asking irritiating questions as it will filter through).

The worst thing is my close friend goes. I have only known her a year but she is great.

Now I am pretty sure I can tell everyone about Ellie and what happened without breaking down!! But I don't know about her lol lol

And If I see her in tears it may set me off!!!!!!

But yes, I would be so proud of myself.

I am miss Gobby and outgoing in certain situations, but this type of thing...... terrifies me

and I am pencillied in as they didn't know if I would do it or not lol

Thanks so much everyone

I will probably say I will do it then completely wet myself with nerves nearer the time!!