"I want to die out. I don't want to be me anymore" does he mean it?

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Ds is 7, dx is asd. He just started at a special school in September which has been fantastic in so many ways! He is so much more relaxed and happy, and his speech, and especially understanding, language skills how come on in leaps and bounds! It's been amazing.

He has just said to me "I'm going to go backwards. I going to be inside your tummy and just get smaller and smaller. Then I will disappear and I wont be me anymore. I don't want to be me. I just want to die out".

They have been learning about dinosaurs which is why he is using the phrase 'die out'. I listened then asked him did he really not want to be him? Was he really sad? Answered both yes. I asked him why and he didn't say anything.

Having read on here and elsewhere of so many children on the spectrum saying they wished they were dead from such young ages, I'm now well and truly panicking!

I have been so happy that he seems to be suddenly able to express himself since starting at his new school. He has talked about things that have happened in the last year that he didn't seem to understand at the time (other kids mocking and being unkind to him) and how he felt about them.

Sorry, just realised I don't have a question to ask! But I'm the only adult in the house and feeling a bit freaked by it!

Hi red maybe he is starting to realize his differences? I personally would never ignore a DC who doesn't want to exist anymore regardless of what any one else said. Just keep a close eye on him and see how he gets on.

My DS said similar at that age (he had never spoke like that before, and hasn't since) it stemmed from not being able to 'do' what was expected from him either academically or socially in MS and he couldn't get anything right there for it would make everything easier if he wasn't here.

Thankyou that really helps. Yes will keep an eye on him. He is very hyper this evening. Very lovely too, cuddly, a bit dreamy, flitting around and can't focus on anything. So he seems happy to the outside observer, but potentially stressed out and retreating into himself.

He has just come and asked me to run him a bath, and told me how much water and that he wanted lots of bubbles. This is new, to be expressing preferences. So this is why I am taking him a little bit seriously even though he sounded a bit jokey when he said it.

I have been waiting for the day to arrive when he starts to notice his differences to his (younger) sister for example, maybe this is it.

My ds first told me he wanted to die when he was 3. It absolutely tore me up inside (coupled with pregnancy hormones I was in bits).
He does still say similar but i've learnt to let it go over my head iyswim. Like it's just a saying with no meaning behind it.

Gosh how sad for you. My ds doesn't know he is different but said for the first time ever two weeks ago that his words won't come and they never will and he cried. I cried more. I was more hurt as I told him it wasn't true when I knew he was right. It's a hard time when the start to see they are a bit different. I would keep a eye on him. God I dread that conversation when ds asks my why. Maybe it is that?