Im a wreck

[jenk1]

I cant stop crying.

We took dd to the CDC this morning to see her usual Paed, he observed her for a while and then asked us was anything worrying us.

So i told him that i think she,s ASD and he said "Yes i agree with you, ive been waiting to see if it was just a phase but no, shes definately regressed."
DD used to laugh with the Paed and let him examine her and today she gave him evil looks and screamed when he talked to her.
He asked about nursery, was she settling in, well she still cries every day and she,s being going for nearly 5 months, she doesnt interact with other children and is happy to sit on the nursery ladies knee as she is with us.

He said its not a phase, her speech has regressed also.

He has told us that he is referring her to the specialist in ASD at the hospital but given our family history its more than likely ASD.

You know someone has listened to me today (apart from MN of course) in RL and agreed and i feel vindicated that im not being paranoid but yet im bawling my eyes out.
I know i posted last week about dd and them saying they are pretty sure of her dx re CP and now for her to have ASD and DS have AS and i have AS its all getting too much and im not coping very well.

Oh darling, no idea how to help you, what to say, just wanted to say sorry babes. The confirmation bit is gonna hurt so much. Wish I knew what to say to you.
Soemone help me here!
TC xxxxxxx

I'm so sorry, Jenk. :( I wish I could say something to make you feel better. You've been having such a tough time of it lately. :( xxx

Jenk, I don't know what to say either.
Except that this must so hard for you. The 'confirmation' that you know your child and are rihght, is small recompense for such news. But you are a good Mum, and i'm so sorry you are havng to deal with so much for your darling dd.

I'm sorry too Jenk, you've had so much to take in just lately

So sorry to hear this jenk. Your instinct may have alerted you but to hear it confirmed by a professional just makes it so real which is hard to bear. You've all had such a tough time lately too.

Oh hun,

Am sorry to hear also that your instinct has been proven correct.

She is still your wonderful DD regardless of what diagnoses they give her.

Many many hugs from Essex
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Jenk - Just to add to the sympathy and hugs. From all of your previous posts we know you've been through a lot - totally understand you feeling overwhelmed by it all. BUT also from your other posts, you've shown that you're a fantastic mum!

Sorry that you're having to go through this :(

Thanks everyone.

My niece came over and watched DS for a couple of hours and me and DH went into Town and had a posh coffee and cake

He also went into a designer shop and bought DD a DKNY outfit, he is just as upset and this is his way of dealing with it.

Good job that there was a sale on!!!!

Going to tell my mum in a bit she will be heartbroken.

Its weird cos both my and DS are ASD, i dont know how to explain how i feel, its not that she has ASD its just i know the problems that are coming up for her and thats the hardest part.

What would i do without MN?

Hi jenk, i hope youre feeling a bit better. it must feel like one thing after another, im sorry to hear your dd may have asd. I can understand how you must be feeling as my ds2 was diagnosed a few months ago and i was worried for a while beforehand it may be asd. Thinking of you from 2mum.

So so sorry Jenk. Life is so unfair. I hope that you feel a bit better as time goes by. xx

Jenk.
I don't know what to say, the relief that your right with your concerns gets brushed side completely by the 'yes, your right' aspect of the situation.

I'm thinking of you, and you know whre mumsnet is when you need us x

So sorry to hear this jenk :( I know you have been through such a rough time and my heart really does go out to you.
hugs xxxxxx

so sorry Jenk1. That is really hard, I cannot imagine how you feel. Sometimes life can be so unfair :(