Glad you're staying Dev, as KeepOn said I am used to seeing you around the board and am genuinely very fond of you, not to mention in awe of your strength. I know you don't believe you are strong - but you are.
I have been around the last couple of days, but have been staying away from the boards a little myself recently, mainly because things aren't going so well for me and mine and I'm finding it hard to be anything other than a monumental moany grouch 
but also because I feel like I've already asked all the questions I can about what's going on with my ds, so many times that I'm sure certain posters must grind their teeth to see me back again. I've had great support and suggestions from lovely people here, but if the so-called professionals lie, manipulate and refuse to budge, we are essentially powerless and stuck.
I felt bad about not being around, so I came back yesterday, but it seems I just made it worse by trying to offer advice when I really wasn't in the right headspace to do so. 
It's an odd situation this, communicating in cyberspace and becoming fond of people who we don't know in rl. (Although in truth we probably do know more about them than the people who surround us/them every day, as we tend to share things anonymously that we would never discuss with most of the people we see every day.) The fact that we all dip in and out as and when we can and disappear without explanation for days or even weeks on end makes it hard to maintain a cohesive friendship group - well it does for me, because I'm not on fb so don't have contact with anyone other than on here. But I promise you, at least for me, that doesn't mean I care any less and I often think of different people on here, you included and wonder how you are getting on.
I hope we've managed to convince you that you are a very valued member of this board and a lot of people here care about you.
Honk!