I am a single parent , I have asd , after a long battle I got a really good carer and social worker this has worked well for 7 years . my dd has social needs , she is great with adults/ younger kids but cant seem to interact with her peers. have had long battle with school to get her needs met ,she is on a foundation course with with one teacher to 3 kids for 7 hrs week which she loves , but gets no help in other lessons / break times , anyway applied stat asses turned down appeal pending . she also was struck down with a mystery joint illness last winter , that resulted in lots of trips to a and e , this raised suspisions of social services. she was eventually diagnosed and is getting treatment but now makes so much fuss with any illness i end up seeking med treatment, then rasing suspisions . any way im exasted and asked for carers assesment anyway they said she wasnt disabaled and i lost it and stood in the traffic in the middle of night. no body reaLized as i came in and realized my stupidity . i told social services now in getting parenting assesment. I just felt desperate , my social worker has been supportive and says im good parent , but its out of her hand as she an adult social worker . i feet suicidal because im fed up of having asd and want to be normal and i blame myself for dd being ill (shes suicidal and under chams) i tried so hard to be a good mum , shes all i ever wanted , i love her but i wonder if she would be better off in care . dad is shit let his gf verbaly abuse her and left her tramatied,works but dosent pay maintenance.i feel guitly as she gets dla but if social services say shes not disab does that mean she not entiteld (i have used it to buy special shoes she need glasses , heating clubs etc). im also woried they may say my carer isnt working and take her away.. she helps me shop cook etc i couldent cope with out her . oh dear i have cocked up bigtime is it time to throw the towel in ????