And there's still a week to go!!
I really thought I would relax these Easter holidays because I don't have to worry about what might have happened when DD goes to school. I don't have to deal with that awful, stomache churning moment where I go and pick her up and I sheepishly ask "was she ok?" It makes me sound so weak, but I often walk through the doors shaking. I think I manage to disguise it slightly though.
The thing that's making me really nervous is that when she starts back there will be several more children starting, one of which will need the TA attention more than my DD. The TA kind of works as her 1 to 1 if she needs it. When I had a meeting with the school the other week they said that she was doing well overall but that they were concerned what would happen after Easter. In other words they know it's probably not going to work out so get ready to fight for extra help. I think I know who the TA will be with instead and he's a rather severely autistic little boy, so it's fair enough that his needs are greater than my dds. Having said that i'm just terrified that things are going to go horribly wrong and that we'll temporarily lose her again. When something snaps with dd she can regress quite a lot and for quite a long time. When that happens I just fall straight into depression and don't feel strong enough to cope. That being said,I obviously don't have a choice.
I just wish I could put it out of my mine. Just for this week.
Is anyone else feeling like this?