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Okay so mrs calm at all times had just lost it!.. And feels guilty

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TheArsenicCupCake · 08/01/2011 16:44

All day I have listened to the ranting and venting and controlling and interferring with what everyone else is trying to do.. Including snatching and shouting and demanding.. And refusing to get dressed so we can go out... Interferring with dds mum and daughter cake baking..
And now after everyone has put up, explained calmly he has had the cheek to yell in my face about how he has done everything everyone else has wanted all day.

And I'm sorry to say I blew and yelled back!

And now I feel crappy!

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TheArsenicCupCake · 08/01/2011 21:32

I pretty much bet that everyone on here with a dx has felt the same ( not that it helps.. But you do come out the other side).

If you explain what you did here as to why you want to record it.. I'm sure it will be fine.

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StartingAfresh · 08/01/2011 23:16

FGS Arsenic, he has autism!

No he can't help some of the things he does, but also he'll better understand emotions when they are presented a bit more.......obviously Smile.

And he NEEDS to practise dealing with and experiencing these emotions in other people. And he NEEDS to see that they can be a bit unpredictable.

You didn't do anything wrong. It's good for you all now and then have you blow a fuse. It is good experience for him, good pressure release for you, and quite frankly good for your other children to see that you don't think the world revolves around your ds despite what it might feel like at times to them.

TheArsenicCupCake · 08/01/2011 23:28

I know star.. Just feel like i'm his safe person ( and dh).. As his dad is a yeller! And he has enough going on at school.

He has moved on from it very quickly though.. And it was me left feeling guilty! What can you do huh?
< shakes head at self!>

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StartingAfresh · 08/01/2011 23:31

Oh but you ARE his safe person. You love him unconditionally, even when you shout.

That is the safest relationship to practice disharmony on ocassion and he needs to learn how to deal with it.

You might want to discuss it a bit tomorrow to see if there is anything you can both learn from it!?

TheArsenicCupCake · 08/01/2011 23:40

That's a good idea star! :)

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moosemama · 08/01/2011 23:51

Arsenic, I have to agree with Star. He needs to learn/understand that even if you get cross sometimes, you are still his Mum and safe person and love him unconditionally - nothing will ever change that.

He also needs to know that you aren't perfect and can be emotional or make bad choices/mistakes sometimes and that that's ok - it doesn't change how you feel about him.

I'm not exactly known for my calm demeanour, but ds knows that I love him no matter what. We've read books to that effect and talked about it regularly since he was old enough to understand. He now gets it that even if I shout and/or get angry sometimes, that doesn't mean I don't love him, it just means I'm human. He knows that I'll always love him and put him first no matter what. Conversely, he also knows that no matter how much he shouts at me and has meltdowns, it will never stop me loving him. Two sides of the same coin.

Your ds probably moved on from it so quickly precisely because he knows it too. You're his Mum and you love him, to him that will be an indisputable fact.

Again, as Star said, all children learn to deal with disharmony through interaction with their parents - we're the safest people to do this with, precisely because they do know we'll love them no matter what. If they didn't, we wouldn't get it coming the other way with toddler tantrums and teenage strops.

But then, you know all that already, you are just having an attack of the Mummy guilts. We all get them sometimes.

TheArsenicCupCake · 09/01/2011 00:03

Yup :) I know it's rather pants though!

And I'm really tired l.. But I am in bed listening to ds's nightly sleep commentary.. All is well as it's about starwars and ja ja binks.. If he was upset it would be him yelling and crying and sitting bolt upright.

So no lasting damage other than to my own expectations of myself!

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mariamagdalena · 09/01/2011 23:42

DS1 (and me, and everyone else) hates it when I lose the plot... but loves the occasions when I catch myself early and sit on the 'naughty chair' to count to 60.

Sounds like your outburst was more like the second type. A good example of how to handle that intensity of feeling.

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