who else feels they'll be alone forever

[needcoffee1982]

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Not quite sure what you mean - but wanted to say hope you are ok?

you are not alone, we're here. I think Xmas and New Year bring out a lot of deep feelings, not least because the routine is broken and everyone has more time to think. There is some good TV on tonight, can you have wine and choc (and fags, in my case) x

i've got vodka, no chocs left, kids ate them all, and i dont smoke, but sometimes wish i did :)

Hope you are ok needcoffee, i'm here if you need to chat. I'm feeling a bit today and worried about the future, i have a dh but i worry as he is a lot older than me, i worry about being alone and looking after dd2 for the rest of my life.

I hate this time of year (too much time to think, everyone else seems to be going out tonight whilst we are stuck in).

Hope you are ok?

thanks marne i hate this time of year, it makes me feel lonely, but it dont bother me being alone the rest of the year

I'm here too..same old, same old, tonight.. Wine,Jools Holland on telly,choc,baccy..DS2 will be asleep come midnight, when i usually go outside and wish the stars 'Happy New Year'..Been doing this,apart from year before last,for 12 years!..

You get kinda used to it!

Sorry for being a bit dense - have no brain today. I am no fan of NY. I am going to paint my toe nails and eat some nice cheese and biscuits. Can you think of something nice to treat yourself in the new year?

i cant think of anything janx. have you got any ideas?

needcoffee..... do you mean you, or your daughter? Or in your situation?

I feel this way ALL THE TIME. We're in tonight. I spent years alone with my ds after ex husband left but I remarried last year. Point is, I'm not alone tonight and I don't go out anyway so, no great loss there, but, as I type, I can hear my 10 yr old ds upstairs tying himself in knots with his OCD. I'm finding it harder and harder to reach him.

For myself, I don't care much but I fear for the lonely life I presume my son will have. I'm 48 now, so won't be around forever and he's an only child. I wake most nights in a panic about who will care for him, who might LOVE him or even just cuddle him, when I'm gone.

I just get through this time of year. It's not that I'm antisocial etc but frankly, I have bigger things on my mind.

Sound like a real barrel of laughs, don't I?

I'm having wine, a curry and Jools Holland....

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL.

My son is ten, has autism from diagnosis at age 4 and then OCD from age 9. BTW

Thanks PipinJo.

We met on the internet......as I never went over the doorstep, living as I was in the middle of nowhere and having no family within 150 miles of me. My ds's difficulties meant that I couldn't even leave him with a baby sitter so, I'm amazed my marriage happened at all!

Relocated to Cheshire 18 months ago. It's lovely to be "with" someone again after doing it all on my own for soooo long!!

But, life's not perfect for any of us, is it? I now have a step daughter who looks at me like I've just crawled from under her shoe. Ah well!