hi everyone, been a member of mumsnet for years but am more of a cruiser than a writer!! anyway, i was on help me love my baby with my middle daughter izzy who is in the process now of being diagnosed with aspergers (we went to a seminar on it and she a thousand percent has it!! am only going through the motions with CASBAT etc.. to get her some help at school and such)izzy will be five in april and i have xara who is 8 and zane who is 17 months. i have to admit that life is bloody hard with izzy, to begin with when she first started having issues i thought it was down to her start in life with us not bonding etc... but my therapist said it isnt, but i cant help feeling guilty and very down because i worked so hard to love her and these days she calls me lots of things that are not nice (something the family support worker said is actually a good thing as she is very repetative its called ecollation or something!!??) school are already dragging there feet about one to one, so thats a struggle already and after reading some of the posts on here i think i may be fighting a big battle!!
izzy has the typical aspergers traits along with sensory issues, she hates church bells and the ice cream van jingle (she has hated that since about 18 months old!! always thought it was a bit odd!) she will cover her ears and cry and just repeat "i dont like it" over and over, or run inside the house if the ice cream van comes! compulisvely picks scabs and can eat food that is red hot without batting an eye lid, she also hates being touched if she is having a meltdown and even if zane touches her she will push him over or away etc... routine is big and she needs lots of warning if things are going to change even down to the school photographer came the other day and her teacher said she was fine having her pic taken but was difficult for the rest of the day because it off set her etc..
the other thing i am now accepting is that izzys dad most def has aspergers too, he came to one seminar, came out and looked at me and said "i related to everything that woman said" and i was sooo relieved, we have been together a long time but it was only after my therapy i realised that he was very different emotionally etc.. to a lot of men i know. i have just read a book by katrin bentley i think she is called , called alone together and god i cried all the way through it as that is my life , i have emailed her it got to me that much!!
anyway, just wanted to introduce myself on here and hope if there is anyone on here in a similar situ we can chat or vent or cry!!
zoe :)