agggghhhhhhh

[tiredmummyneedswineandsleep]

I could just scream or walk away from life right now.
Have had enough. I'm tired and depressed. Had an awful day at work fri- sort of related to ds because he goes to pre school there. one morning a week he comes in with me for a few mins to give my parents a break because they have been helping me out loads by caring for him when ds isnt allowed to attend. now the person i work with has complained so that cant happen any more. someone else i work with has thankfully offered to try and help.but ds was made out to be far worse than he had been.

then fri my dad who has been unwell and is under a specialist in london for a severe balance problem fell down the stairs

next i get told ds hours may not be approved for january so i said if they're not i shall complain officially. he didnt ask to have asd and adhd so why shouldnt he get 15 hours a week like other children.

i hardly slept last 2 nights and as a result am even more shattered than normal and have severe headache.

yest i took ds out to a another town as he wanted to go on a train. he kept opening the buggy and running off. he is so quick and has no sense of danger. added to that i had xmas shopping to carry and it was a nightmare. then on the bus back to our house he was screaming and hitting me cue people tutting and muttering.

this afternoon i fell asleep on sofa, he climbed up to the top of the kitchen and emptied 3 packets cereal everywhere. i have shredded wheat crumbled over clean clothes, crushed over the floor and his train table, rice krispies all over worktop and floor and chocolate wheat cereal in a sink full of water so its all swelled up. then i woke up to a hissing sound and he was spraying the sofas with dry shampoo and said it was snow! aaagghhh. i just dont have thee energy or motivation to clear it up right now.my kitchen still hasnt recovered from last week where he rubbed butter and hot chocolate powder all over the walls an floor.
to top it off my days off this week are spent visiting schools for him for next year and speech therapy. will be catching at least 6 buses each day.

sorry probably have it mild compared to most of you but just have had a weekend where i want to go to sleep and not wake up.

that's a bugger of a week/ weekend! I don't have anything useful to add, just wanted to let you know you had been heard, hope this week isn't so grotty...

What a rubbish time of it!

nothing is mild when it gets you down!

keep going, keep strong, things will eventually get better. Your DS sounds like a lovely little fella. We are all with you in spirit. You are a rock and your DS needs you.

sounds like a rough rough week for you! Hope things improve and you can get some down time without the stress!

That sounds like a very tough weekend, really crap.. I agree that it doesn't matter if it sounds mild ( it doesn't though ) coz it's all relative and we deal with what we have to deal with.. Other people's worse experiences don't always make it easier to deal with our own..

I really hope this week goes by really quickly and without too many difficulties as you're out and about so much.

You're not alone with the feelings you have.. I recognise those times when dd has caused so much stress and chaos you don't know where to start, and feel it would be so much easier to run away.. It's a tough one, but hang in there, and be gentle with yourself.

take one thing at a time as to much at once will break the camels back....so what if there is ceral everwhere...it's not life threatening....what if ds drank bleach or worse (I know ds did when I turned my back for a few seconds in early days) don't be hard on yourself dont worry about the mess at the mo relax and have a cuppa/watch telly etc and deal with it tomorrow or when up to it! It is hard enough dealing with our dc on times...without the housework etc on top!

I have never done it but can you get a taxi and claim the money back for travelling to hospital appointments (SALT is counted?). Do you get DLA yet to help with these extra costs? Also invest in lockable boxes for the shampoo and bleach as don't want you to go through bleach incident :(

Yikes tired mummy. You had a shit few days, haven't you?

Want2sleep is right - take on one thing at a time. Don't think about the other stuff right now.

dont think about the last few days, just try and start anew today. Do you have any support from places like homestart? Also you could try and use the last of his 15 hours somewhere else? we do this with dd2.
I would gladly come and help you tidy up, we all need a hand now and then :)
passes strong tea/coffee this morning x

Hope that things are better this week.

Couple of practical suggestions - can you put a stairgate across a.doorway so your Ds is confined in one safe room and can't get up to.so much mischief if you habeas a nap. We got ornfrom motherland cataloguenand it screws to the wall so os better than the pressure type. Also have a look at crellimg harnesses who may have something to escape propfthe the buggy.

Oops Scuse all the typos

thanks so much.
the mess is still there. am shattered. just in. have got 5 buses and a taxi today.
ds had a couple of melt downs in town one of which resulting in a cross old dear telling ds to mind her toes and be careful! and loudly tutting and giving me disapproving looks!
on a positive note i viewed a communication and interaction centre which would be perfect for ds when he starts school in september. now i am desperate to persuade the powers that be its what he needs.

p.s bought a mini padlock and some cable ties today so going to see if either will keep Houdini in the buggy!