If I stood next to the lady in the queue at Tescos & she told me this story about her life over the last 7 months; I wouldn't believe her

[KatyMac]

Thank you all for believing me

I really appreciate the fact that you didn't say I was a lying cow

Your support has meant so much to me

Oh KatyMac, I guess believing is just our way of life. Having people not believe US is probably the worst thing we have to deal with and we know what the consequences look like.

Hope your life can get back on track asap.

You ok Katy?

Kind of

I had a bit of a freaky about what a GP said to me a week ago

I had a cold & got a sore chest/temp/unwell-ness because of DH I went to GP

I met the asthma nurse in the corridor who expressed concern at my cough & said 'make sure you tell the GP, I want you to have antibiotics whether or not you need them to protect DH'

So I went into the GP explained the whole thing, she examined me & said 'I can't tell whether it is a chest infection or a virus, but as you are overly anxious about it I'll give you anti-biotics'

I was feeling so poorly I just walked out & in the end I didn't take the ABs

Today I was completely in pieces at the counsellors, this would never have upset me before but now I feel that this will go on my medical record, I am 'Overly anxious' in 5 years time if I am concerned about DH or DD they will look on my record & see that so dismiss my concerns

I am rambling sorry

Take the anitbiotics, try not to worry about the insensitive doctor she probably wasn't even thinking about what she said let alone write it down, you need to be well hugs

Oh Katymac you've spent the past few months going out of your mind with worry, been attacked from several directions, had your parenting skills called into question and had to keep going for your DD and DH without falling to pieces.

Now DD is better and you don't have this almighty battle to fight you need to allow yourself to take stock and if that means falling to pieces a bit so be it! As mums we tend to keep it all in until there's an appropriate time to deal with it and I think now is your time. If you need to blub to the counsellor then that's just what you should do.

You've been amazingly strong through all of this. Who wouldn't be anxious after what you've been through? You know that you have a right to see you records so if you feel the need you can check at some point in the future. That's the time to challenge anything you don't agree with (if there is anything). In the meantime cut yourself a bit of slack and take some time to allow yourself to get over all this.

I guess

I do feel I need to address it tho'. I may write a letter to the GP.....I may not even need to send it, just write it

It's funny how well that works isn't it?