keep breaking down

[borderslass]

Feel ready to just walk out and never come back spend half the time crying and shouting at DH he's NEVER affected by DS he doesn't have to get up at stupid o'clock to take him to school.He caused it by refusing to give new taxi company a try he said they weren't reliable they've been there every morning and night FFS. I'm still not getting paid as he phoned insurance company asking for a letter for the council they supposedly said ok but I phoned them after waiting 2 weeks and they said no their not sending one. My insurance is going to double as I need to get business use before council will pay me expenses its costing me £70 a bloody week but he's alright he's not bloody stressing over it.DS wont go to bed at night he's 16, 5'10", 11 stone and I have to physically lift him out of bed every morning to get him in shower.
I know it seems trivial compared to some but he just sits there and takes it telling me to calm down and stop shouting at him as the neighbours will hear I don't care anymore.
sorry just needed to let off steam.

That sounds so stressful, vent away, this board is great for that :)

Sending some pixie dust and hugs your way, hope you are able to get through to your DH that you need help.

StarlightMcKenzie Were actually booked to go away in the caravan next weekend for the October week just DS,DD2 and me really don't want to go but promised her we'd go to Blackpool for her birthday.Will be a cheap and cheerful break as I've no money as long as DS has some warhammer figures to paint he'll come without any fuss.
DH can't come as he's a self employed taxi driver weekends are his busiest which is when I'm at my lowest with him being out all night.
We're meant to be going away for my 40th next month just the 2 of us DD1's coming to look after the other 2 but don't know if I want to go.

Aha, I was wondering why your dh wd be so very intransigent over taxi firms... makes more sense now. Not that making sense helps you much with the killer early mornings/ late night combo. Is your ds too old for melatonin?

Borderslass, this isn't trivial x

Really sympathise with you. Dp and I have many disagreements over how to deal with our ds1 and the problems which come up almost constantly. I have to get out of the house and away every so often to avoid going mad. Although dp sulks about it, I go out once per week for drink / moan with friend and also arrange the odd weekend away for me and dd2. I also encourage him to go away occasionally. You need to start taking care of yourself. i know this is easier said than done.

Feel like a whole weight has been lifted insurance is sorted only over £900 plus £170 cancellation fee,so council is going to send claim pack out now.Booked an appointment with Dr as I've been getting pins and needles in my hands for last month or so and its progressed to a real ache that's there most of the time couldn't get to sleep because of it last night don't know whether to mention my mood swings though.
Melatonin never ever worked for DS.
Can't get away on my own with DD2 as DH can't afford to have to many weekends off and none of his family speak to us.
Now all I've got to do is find somewhere within 4 hours drive for November I think we need the couple time.