Need some hand holding - got medical report from Solicitor

[Hangingbellyofbabylon]

I feel physically sick and need to talk to dh but he is stuck in meetings in London till late. We've had the medical report for our negligence case today and without going into too much detail it has stated that the hospital cocked up repeatedly (well we knew that) but also that if they had not messed up dd may well have avoided the problems she has. The case is now being passed to a paediatric neurologist for a further report.

Most of the time I don't think 'what if?' - I just look at my amazing little girl and think thank goodness because she is my blessing and because she narrowly escaped not making it at all . But today, remembering being pregnant and knowing that if the right decisions had been made my dd could have been 'saved' from her cerebral palsy makes me just want to vomit.

I'm sat here with my 3 girls and I want to weep and wail, I'm right back there in that shitty hospital at the mercy of the doctors. Mustn't let my lovely girls know why mummy is fighting back the tears.

(((hug)))

oh, HBOB, I'm sorry.

it must be hard seeing it in black and white, that all the trouble you've had (not meaning your dd, just all the fights for provision, help, etc) should not have been necessary.

weep and wail on here, we're listening.

HBOB . I can't imagine how hard it must be seeing it there in writting.

I'm glad you're still pushing ahead with this, I can remember you being in two minds whether or not to when you were first doing it.

Oh HBOB. I just don't know what to say. It seems so much crueler to know that this was the result of human error. to you and your family.

I'm sorry .

I'm so sorry.

thank you. Dh home now so we can thoroughly digest the news. Just in the course of this day there have been so many moments that would have been different if dd's CP could have been avoided. I don't want anyone to think I don't love my dd as she is, she is my light and life. But I know if she could click her fingers and change things she would.

It's still going to be a long process as we have waited nearly 9 months for this report and the next report to be requested will probably take this long too but at least we are going in the right direction.

I'm a bit freaked out as I have suffered from PSTD and for ages had flash backs about the birth and stuff. I've been on anti-depressents for nearly 2 years and am very close to having weaned myself off them and I just hope that this doesn't set me back too far. DD is starting school in a few weeks and I need to be on top of things for that. [scared of everything now]

That's a pretty shit thing to have to read. :(

I don't know your full story but I had to send you ((hugs)) you must be feeling just dreadful. :(

sorry you had to read something like that

Have name changed, and don't know your story. But I understand the emotional fallout. My dh and I have only just finished with the litigation process for our ds. In all it took ten years. And a lot of emotional pain and upheaval during that time. My ds was born brain damaged and has cp. It could have been avoided if the hospital had had enough staff, there were many many errors. So I offer you hugs too, and also my support.

Please keep posting if you wish to to. MN has helped me enormously over the years, and continues to do so.

I would stronly recommend counselling, if you are not already having it. If you do have counselling, let your solicitor know.

Wishing you all the best. It breaks my heart to realise that another child has been damaged unnecessarily. It is unforgivable. .

I don't know your story either, but I just wanted to chip in with my support too. YOu're going through such a tough time. Keep your chin up. I'm sending lots of good vibes your way.

also wanted to offer support. We have struggled with poor medical support for our ds and it makes me so sad to think that these things can be avoided.

hugs

i went through it aswell it would be worth it in the end when u win the case your baby like mine can have the financial help they so need in this tough times.