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Residential Guilt

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FailBetter · 20/07/2024 17:45

ND child at weekend residential. Due back tomorrow. There was an altercation and they went into meltdown then shutdown (ASC pathway). Teacher rang to let me know but was hoping child would come round. They appear to have come round now.
I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place.
I am and was happy to pick them up straight away but staff gave the impression they wanted them to stay if at all possible.
Additionally, I didn't want to be seen as a Precious Firstborn/Enabling/Don't trust the staff parent (child is not my first/I try not to enable or capitulate as SEND children can be naughty too/I do trust the staff completely).
However, I also don't want the staff to have their weekend compromised or the other kids' trip ruined. I have to trust that my child does not need picking up and that if it was a massive issue, they'd have told me to collect.
But I also feel awful for my kid as they might now be toughing it out/masking/being forced to show resilience when they just wanted to come home as they hated it.
We did speak on the phone but with staff present and they were in autistic meltdown. I feel I've let them down.
I'm not too lazy or tight to collect (the trip was expensive). I hope the staff don't think that. They were giving information/letting me know the situation. I don't think it's worthwhile staying if taking more than it gives but nor would I undermine staff decisions.
But I have been adaptive parenting for as long as they've been adaptive teaching so I know it takes its toll when said child is dysregulated.
I am still not sure if they hoped I'd be the parent that insisted on getting him regardless but I am used to direct communication so have taken them at their word that they are managing.

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SnowdaySewday · 20/07/2024 21:00

You must have been given a number to contact, although this may be held by someone who is not on the trip. Drop it a text to ask has DS settled now and to let you know if he needs collecting. Don’t expect a quick reply if the phone is being held by someone on the trip, they may not get time to reply for a while yet.

FailBetter · 21/07/2024 09:00

I did that thanks lovely. Child is coming back today.
They will either come back fine, glad they stuck it out, or come back angry with me as they will want to vent/give their side of the story. Forgot to give them a safe word. It's bloody difficult. In real life, we often have situations we have to get through or poor choices we need to face or people we don't get on with.
I know that. I'd be setting him up poorly for the future by being over-protective/allowing him to get his own way/have him refuse all the time.
But I have learned over the years to choose my battles wisely and I should perhaps have ignored pressure for him to go in the first place.
There are certain things I do go "No" on - as I know it will end up badly/take more than it gives/it's for other people's expectation of fitting in.
At least this is the last one and from hereon in, there's no pressure to attend trips. I know resilience is the current trending buzz word but I'm beginning to wonder if it's over rated.
Thank you for replying. I think I just needed to vent. It was my first weekend of respite in twelve months and to spend some much needed time 1-1 with my other child but it's been impossible not to worry.

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BrumToTheRescue · 21/07/2024 09:23

I hope the weekend has gone well and your (understandable and perfectly normal) worrying has been for nothing.

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