Im tired to my bones.
DS is 5 and a half and has just been diagnosed as having ASD though we've known really since before he was two.
He's unbelievably full on. I can't do anything with him around, I can't manage to listen to a conversation, sometimes even struggle to make a phone call. He does not stop talking. Everything has to be said to the fullest it can be. He loses his shit if he gets interrupted. He won't play alone. TV distracts him but that's all that does. When he gets silly he doesn't listen, gets disobedient, it's like the devil takes him over. Then afterwards we get tears and he says everyone hates him etc. He's very bright, he wants to know everything.
His sister is three. She is so unbelievably emotional. I never know what will cause a meltdown
They argue and bicker a lot. They can and do play nicely but there are a lot of arguments. I'm so tired of managing. I'm so tired of being shouted at. I'm so tired of repeating requests over and over again, day in day out. I'm tired of hearing yelling and I'll confess yelling myself. I'm so tired of questioning whether his behaviour is the ASD, normal five year old naughtiness, abnormal five year old naughtiness, or shit parenting. Every day feels like I'm going into war. I just don't want to carry on.