I've name changed for this as it's a sensitive topic. I haven't spoken to anyone at all about this.
I have one autistic child, and a second who is likely so too, undergoing assessment
Since receiving a diagnosis for my first child, I have done a lot of reading and am wondering whether I am autistic too.
I have read lots of experiences where parents themselves realise they are autistic following their children's diagnoses.
I'm wondering whether one of my parents is autistic too (they aren't diagnosed either, they are of a generation when few were).
My reasons for wondering is that I have always struggled socially. I had no friends on occasions as a child. I tried to make friends, and still do, but seem to not be able to solidify or maintain many friendships, despite my best efforts. I don't understand why I can't do so.
I personally struggle with unpredictably and noise too. I find even the noise of my children quite distressing often.
On the other hand, I am a reasonable communicator (I work in a job that requires this, and a lot of it). If I am autistic, I must be good at masking. I did very well academically at school, and was also well behaved at school.
I'm in my mid 30s. I imagine there would be little benefit in seeking a diagnosis currently, but it is something that is playing on my mind.