I can't get in the right mindset

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Please can someone give me the kick up the bottom I truly need? I have Over 6st to lose, last year on Slimming World I lost 2 stone, had to leave as I wasn't able to attend my meeting and then put on all the weight and more. Rejoined a new group 7 weeks ago, bought a 12 week countdown to encourage me but then DC were ill so I was stuck on the sofa cuddling them and eating easy to grab junk food. Over the last 6 weeks I've lost little amounts and then regained it all so I'm now the same as I was. I haven't attended class this week as I have been so stressed out with life in general. I want to be slim, but it's killing me that I'm forever going to need to be careful and watch what I eat. I'm never going to be able to just enjoy myself without worry. I plan dinners for the week but then stupidly snack during the day through boredom. Nobody can do it but me but why am I self sabotaging constantly? I just want to go to sleep and wake up slim.

I mucked about for 6 months and lost a stone. But I needed to lose the weight so I could have surgery. It suddenly occurred to me that I would never get the surgery if I didn't help myself.

But you are right, you need to be in the right mindset. For me having the goal really helped. I then broke it into smaller targets and got there just before my appointments. It took a year to get the surgery then I decided to keep going. It took another 8 months to get there but I've been there for a year.

But it took me 6 months to say right this is it.