Where to start? I have been overweight for 20 years. I don't how much i weigh now but i'm 5'9 and size 18/20. I guess I am 20 stone but i could be more. I know i was 12 stone when i got married and size 12/14. I'm too embarrassed get myself weighed but i feel very uncomfortable with rolls of fat around my waist. My bust is huge and my legs/buttocks fat.
Im definitely an emotional eater. I eat when not hungry and overeat when i am hungry. I like the wrong things and often dont know when to stop. I'm desperate to loose weight though and today really feel ready to tackle this.
I know people who do SW and from what i have read it could be the one for me. My main fear though is comfort eating. I like chocolate, crisps, cheese, butter, peanut butter, chips. All would be fine in modertion i know but once i start i don't know how to stop.
Typical day:
Breakfast - 2 slices granary toast and butter and peanut butter, 1 banana, carton cranberry juice, black coffee. Eaten en route to work in car.
Lunch - canteen at work but could be salads (mayo based), or jacket with tuna mayo/cheese or even curry. Full fat yoghurt. Chocolate bar
Dinner - sausages, mash with butter and milk, veggies, baked beans. More chocolate
Snacks - fruit, cheese/crackers with butter/ more chocolate/sweets/biscuits
I'm ashamed.
I have read SW website and like the idea that people say you don't need to go hungry, but what free food can i fill up on that isn't full of fat/calories/syns? And that i can keep on me (i get anxious if i haven't got something in my bag or in the car - i'm prone to fainting and if my blood sugar level drops too much i get shaky and nauseous - think that is what started my emotional eating, the fear of fainting. Trouble is, it has gone too far and i eat and eat and eat then punish myself for eating too much by eating more).
What do you think? Could i make SW work for me? I can't get to a group but would do it online - not sure how to manage the weighing but tbh my actual weight is not the main thing for me, being healthier is and not looking fat.