I’ve experienced this for as long as I can remember. When I was younger, I suffered a significant trauma and my sleep was impacted at night and I was scared to sleep (waking up crying, nightmares/night terrors, waking up family for comfort). This went on for about a year and I was very unsupported and eventually I just had to be scared and ‘suck it up’ as my family were struggling to help me. As an adult, I’ve received years of therapy and no longer feel permanently depressed or anxious and I function very well day to day and love my sleep/sleep well the whole night once I drift off.
No matter my progression, I’ve always felt an empty, numb and scared feeling when I wake from a nap and as a result, I tend to avoid napping. This evening, I put the kids to bed at 8.30pm and fell asleep on their bedroom floor and woke up at 9.30pm. I’ve felt this sinking, empty feeling ever since. Similar to when I was a child and woke up petrified.
I’m wondering if anyone else experiences this? It wasn’t the focus of my therapy and tbh it never made its way into my sessions in any meaningful way because there was so many other aspects of my trauma to uncover. However, I’m wondering if this is just a common experience or if it may be another unprocessed link to my trauma?