This Sucks

[Babygirl94]

I'm tired. I'm tired of being responsible for my babys sleep. I'm tired of doing the most to get her to take a nap that'll only last 30 minutes. I'm tired cos if I don't perform, she wouldn't sleep, and it's just a vicious cycle that'll haunt me at night as she would be over tired all the time. I'm tired, but I don't have the heart to do the cry it out method. Nothing else works except vicious rocking for up to 20 minutes or nursing her to sleep. And if I make the mistake of nursing her to sleep, she wakes up once I move, and that's the end of that sleep. We're 4 months, and I'm tired. I'm so tired. Is there a light at the end of the tunnel? How much longer must I do this. I'm so so so tired.

Four months is the worst time. There is a sleep regression then and it’s awful.

There is a midpoint between CIO and death by no sleep. We did sleep training then,

Rules were: boob every 3h. In between DD got comfort, but not rocking or boob. This was in form of a cuddle by DH, cosleeping with him, singing, and a small muslin cloth she liked (breathable and small so not a sleeping hazard).

It took about 3 days till she slept consistently.

She doesn't like the pram... we always have to use a sling, and she refuses to nap on walks. She's always busy looking around and too interested in what's happening outside. Dad works 5 days a week from the office and gets back home really late, usually at bedtime. And he doesn't wake up at night to help with baby cos he has to be up really early for work. Co sleeping doesn't help tbh. The main issue is putting her down for sleep, and she just goes crazy when I put her on the bed if she's awake. Even if I lay down beside her and cuddle her or sing to her, nothing works unless she's being rocked, bounced, or nursed. I'm.constantky exhausted, I feel like my brain is mush from lack of sleep. I'm always very cranky, especially towards mt husband..I try my best to stay happy when relating with baby because I don't want my mood to affect hers.

It's truly the worst time. She'll scream the whole apartment block down if she wakes up in the middle of the night, and I don't give her the boob. I guess I just have to keep trying, hopefully this passes soon

Will she sleep in a baby swing? I had one who did and one who didn't.

Hang in there. I know this is your whole world at the moment but truly, truly it will.

Look at it this way - you are already sleep training her - you are training her to only be able to sleep if on the boob or being rocked. And that's not in her long term interests (or yours). I'd do some reading about different ways of sleep training and see if there is one you can get comfortable with trying.