Hi everyone, I’m just looking for a abit of advice. I breast fed my son till he was around 1.5 yrs. for the last couple months of it I had these awful intense feelings which I later found out where called aversions, it was the worst most disgusting, skin Crawling feeling and would last the whole feed. I would have to pinch my self over and over to finish it while I weaned him off.
fast forward 7 months and any time my son as much as brushes past my nipple I feel the aversions and get completely cringed.
This isn’t a huge issue to me, this is my real issue haha.. my sons never been the best sleeper and most nights He wakes between 12-3am and refuses to sleep until he’s in my bed. I know this isn’t great and.it was something I was working on.
But now for the last couple weeks he seems to want to have contact constantly at night, he puts his feet and hands on me wether it’s holding my face or putting his feet on my stomach. But constantly moving his hands/feet at the same time. He cries if i move them away. it goes on for hours sometimes as he gets more upset. I feel I have to as I’m now getting these aversion feelings just from him touching me! It’s just awful and It only happens at night! I end up feeling like i want to scream and run away! Which I will never do but it feels like it takes all of me to stay calm and inside I’m crying. I am going to speak to a health visitor about this tomorrow! But just wondering if anyones had this experience. To me it feels as if the breastfeeding aversions triggered something inside of me as I have never experienced these feelings before then. 😓 really want to fix this issue as i don’t want my son to feel I’m pushing him away as he gets upset.