My 14 month old has always been a horrendous sleeper, and in the early days i always thought just hang in there it will get better, but at a year old she was still waking every hour and only sleeping on top of me. I felt depressed, anxious 24/7 and so horrendously sleep deprived as I went back to work full time when she was 6mo.
i decided to sleep train with a consultant at just over a year as I couldn’t take any more, and after a few weeks her sleep was amazing and she was sleeping all night.
now when she has the occasional bad night with teething/illness, I feel rage towards her and just want to scream at her to go to sleep… I didn’t even feel like this before. I honestly feel like I have ptsd over the crying and lack of sleep than I get so scared it’s all coming back again. At other times I like think I am a very gentle parent but as soon as I hear her wake up in the night I fill with dread/anger :( I hate feeling like this and I love my daughter so much.
in scared to why I feel like this. I’d never hurt her but I can’t help the rage :(