10 month old doesn’t sleep

[Tiredmum94]

I feel awful. Every night my son wakes up constantly and usually around 2/3am wakes up completely and wants to be active. He punches, slaps, pulls my hair and kicks me. I hate saying this but at night I don’t like him. I love him but I really dislike him. My partner is so fed up that he stays away one night a week to get a break and leaves me to deal with it alone which is always when he acts up worst and I end up in tears all night alone. He doesn’t want changing or anything he just wants to make my life miserable it seems.
I feel so low and guilty for my emotions that I am slowly losing control of my emotions and I have to leave him in his cot while I take 5 to cry to myself but this just makes him scream so loudly that I’m scared he will wake my neighbours. I can’t cope.
Even when my partner is here he doesn’t wake up to help he just sleeps through it all.

I have similar with my 9 and a half month old.

Last night was the first time I got really annoyed. It was a mix between ‘enough now!’ And kissing and cuddling him due to guilt.

I then left the room and but my head against the door for five minutes whilst my husband got his bottle (has now decided he needs a bottle in the middle of the night).

Our routine has just fallen apart in the last two weeks. I can identify why it’s happening but it’s very difficult to fix. What time does you LO go to bed and get up for the day?

Try giving a heavier meal before bed time perhaps?

Yeah I think a bottle in the middle of the night is the way forward, maybe my supply has dipped... I’m pumping on top of feeding whenever he needs but the formula bottles at night allow me to get at least a couple hours as they fill him up a bit better.He has a pretty big bottle before bed and he never finishes it, rejects it toward the end so I don’t know :(

I’m so exhausted! I don’t understand how a baby who has had just as little sleep as me can be up fresh as a daisy at the crack of dawn lol

Lucy the mum guilt is unreal! I hate getting mad then feeling awful for ages after

It’s so hard, please don’t feel guilty! Most of us (luckily) aren’t used to being hit, kicked and having our hair pulled so I think it’s a totally natural reaction to need to take some time out to compose yourself.

I have been there and luckily it was a phase, hopefully it is for you too. My mantra, and one I’ve heard from an insta nanny (can’t remember which one) is to do what you need to do to get through each phase.