I'm not going to lie. This week has been one the hardest. Husband back to work and routine has just gone out of the window. I'm sat here crying because I feel like I can't cope anymore. I love my children but feel like I'm doing such a rubbish job. I can't put one to sleep without the other waking and then they just take it in turns. They're both extremely active children so it's non stop all day. I feel so run down. I'm hardly getting any sleep, I look and feel like a zombie. I just can't see a light at the end of the tunnel.