Its gonna be long so apologies in advance.
I know all babies are different and I adore my baby snuggles, but the house and myself are beginning to suffer a bit. My 6 month old is the same now as when he was a newborn, just without the cluster feeding (thank god). I put it down to a growth spurt but for the past 2 months he’s just been in my arms. Not even sitting down, I have to bounce and walk up and down with him constantly whist he wriggles to get down and then hates it and wants to be in my arms. He will occasionally settle for up to 5 minutes in his rocking chair, play pen/mat or jumperoo but never for long. I’ve got an older boy who’s going without my attention and it’s really making me feel awful. Constantly guilty.
I have zero support because OH is a first time dad and doesn’t understand, also baby won’t go to him for more than 5 minutes.
Baby only feeds to sleep, and when I put him down he’s instantly wide eyes and will not go back to sleep. Seriously less than an hour’s sleep all day. And awake for a 1-5 minute feed every 15-30 minutes at night. Wakes up as soon as he’s in his own cot and so he’s not slept in it for 4 months. Poor DH sleeps across the foot of the bed because there’s no room. Baby is so used to rolling straight over onto the boob that he whines if it’s literally more than 0.5 seconds away.
He’s the happiest baby in the world, constantly full of smiles until he’s put down.
I’m exhausted. I look like a bag of crap. I can barely eat as he takes all of my time. Lost weight. Existing back problems are worse than ever from carrying 19lbs for 18 hours a day. He’s so big and I’m small so I can’t reach round him in the sling to actually do things.
I won’t let him cry as I personally see it as unfair. I had a baby to care for and he’s not an inconvenience, I knew lack of sleep would be a given but it’s been 6 straight months and I’d just like some advice or support or just anything at all.
Thanks in advance ❤️