my ds1 is 2 weeks away from 20 months old. he has not slept a stretch longer than 5 hours in his whole life. so well over 20 months since I had anything like a good nights sleep and I've just had enough.
I don't need advice because I know what I need to do, I just can't do it.
my dh isn't exactly supportive on the issue. I know a couple nights of daddy responding to night wakings with me in the other room may help but daddy won't/can't hack it. this isn't a dh bash really. he works incredibly hard and long hours so that I can be a sahm but I am feeling broken.
it is never a good time. I always have an excuse to wait: once we move. once we are settled. once he's over this cold. once we are back from holiday. once these teeth come through. I guess I'm worried I'd go through several nights of hell only to have it all undone when we go on holiday or he gets some more teeth.
I have no energy ever. all I crave is sugar, junk food and caffeine. I don't see when I could exercise but even if I could drag myself to the gym once the tot is in bed, I just don't have the energy.
I feel bitter and annoyed when people talk about their baby sleeping through. I feel bitter that no one has offered to have ds overnight. I feel bitter that sil/bil went on holiday for a week with fil and his wife and sil/bil were able to go out to a posh Italian wedding as their cherub sleeps wonderfully (7-7, 9 months old ff).
anyone else want to join me in my lack of sleep, self indulgent whinge?