I am single mum of two kids - 1 and 8
I have no support from family or friends or the kids dads
My eldest has special needs as often exhibits very challenging behaviours d is hard to get to sleep. My youngest is a fab sleeper, 7 to 7 since early age!
I am very strong and do my best - but I am tired. Really, really bloody tired. And having trouble sleeping lately as lying awake worrying a lot
Tonight I managed to get to sleep just after 2am. My kids were in bed at 7 and,8. After a long week!
However at 330 am I woke in a daze to a loud knocking and my phone ringing - it was the police at ny door! They had had a call that my youngest was crying and neighbour was concerned... Turns out my baby monitor was off - awful I know but she's in the room next door to me and it is out of character for her to wake, she usually sleeps through , I admit I should check it is on each night though
When they looked around n saw my baby they were reassured every thing was ok n left, they were really really nice about it (even though my house is a bit of a bomb site tonight, it's a small flat n can get a little cluttered I admit!) my baby went straight back to sleep after a little drink.
However I'm left feeling really really awful. Cant sleep now n tomorrow going to be even worse zombie Than usual
A) I didn't wake up when my baby was crying - this terrified me
B) don't get why the neighbour called police instead of buzzing my (LOUD!) outside buzzer even - this could have been done anonymously and would have woken me up no prob
I'm just scared of what people think of me as it is n now every time my kids have a tantrum going to feel some "concerned" do gooder is gonna be calling god knows who. When if they really cared they'd come round n offer help not call the police.
I'm a sweet, nice, friendly well spoken woman and not scary or intimidating, everyone in this apartment block knows this, so why???
At my wits end :(