Reaching breaking point :(

[sometimesyouwin]

Please tell me things will get better?!
I think maybe I just need to let it put and moan but if anyone has any suggestions on how to cope they will be gladly welcomed!
I've just spent the past month with recurrent mastitis and been really poorly and was finally getting over it. Then DH got a bad back meaning he couldn't hold DS2 (6mths) or do anything with DS1 (3.9yrs) so I've been doing everything. DS1 has started a hideous cold on Friday and has been really poorly and a nightmare and we're all just really tired and miserable. The worst of it at the moment is that DS2 is a terrible sleeper like my first was. He's up all through the night and on a good night I might get 5 hrs of broken sleep but it's usually nearer 3. I've been up for the 4th time with him since 3 am and every time I put him down he wakes again. What has topped my night off is that DH has just nipped to the loo and popped his head round the door to announce he has a really sore throat . I think I'm going to struggle to be sympathetic. I'm just really struggling to stay on top of things. I know I won't get back to sleep now as by the time I get DS2 back to sleep, DS1 will be waking up ready for the day. I've got both kids on my own today and have somehow got to try and deal with a urine soaked king size mattress from DS1's accident last night and a tonne of laundry.
I know I probably shouldn't moan as there are worse things to cope with. I just really need sleep to be able to deal with everything but nothing works with DS2. Any tips on how other people cope? I'm guessing I need to just suck it up and deal with it .

Don't count how many hours sleep you get. Just don't. When I stopped doing that with DS (8 and still doesn't sleep) I started feeling a bit better in the morning rather than obsessing over sleep. It was bloody hard because I wanted to feel sorry for myself.

Any friends /family who could come and watch them for a few hours today or maybe take them to the park while you get a few hours sleep?. Look after yourself too x

Oh my love, I've been exactly where you are, it's hideous. My DH has chronic back problems which started just before dc2 was born, he spent the first year unable to even pick up his own baby, doped up to the eyeballs on painkillers and sleeping pills. Dc2 was an appalling sleeper and would be up every 45 minutes through the night. I spent so many days in an exhausted zombie state. I honestly don't remember most of it now, I've blocked it out and I have no idea how we got through, but we did of course.

Can you get some help? Even if you have to pay for a mothers helper a few hours a week or something? Just to give you a break, let you get a nap? Do you have friends or family who could help out? My biggest regret is not asking for help or paying for some, we could have easily done it but for some reason it just never occurred to us.

Things will get better, but do ask for RL help, you need to look after yourself too because at the moment you are holding the whole family together.

Thanks guys, all good and valid points. I definitely need to stop counting the hours. I promised I wouldn't do it this time round but I've fallen into that trap again. I think it just helps knowing others have been through the same thing and have come out the other side.
I've actually been quite productive in the end this morning. I think it was that or wilt into a mess in front of the kids and that wouldn't have been nice for anyone. I just spent 2 hours blitzing all the jobs and have driven round to my mum and dads house. They're not spring chickens but they are extra hands and although they can't do loads with the kids they will at least make sure I get some decent food and drinks and give me a bit of respite.
Sometimes in the middle of the night things just seem unmanageable and daunting and I can't see an end to it. Just got to hang in there!