Please tell me that I am doing something really evidently wrong, because I can't take it anymore and I need to sleep.
DD is nearly 12 months. She is bf on demand and although I tried a couple of weeks of her sleeping in her own cot when she was born, I soon moved to co-sleeping just to survive (she woke up so often, getting out of bed to pick her out of the cot, feed her and put her back was killing me).
She started solids at 6 months, she is very interested and eats well most days so I was hoping that she would drop some bf feeds but instead she has added the solids to all her previous bf feeds. She is a large baby on the 95th percentile for height and over the 98th for weight.
As a result she eats all the time. She goes to bed at 7pm with a feed, I then join her at 10pm when she eats again but many nights she wakes up 2-3 times to eat between the two as well. From 10pm onwards anything can happen: one some, few, miraculous nights she sleeps for 5 hours before starting a massive feed for 2-3 hours in the morning before we get up at 7.30am. On most nights though she just wakes me up again and again to eat- not sure how many times, I am pretty out of it by then. I am still co-sleeping but even so not getting any sleep.
The falling asleep is usually pretty good, she will fall asleep bfing, but will ocassionally also self-sooth, it's the constant re-waking up to feed! She sleep-feeds for one hour in the morning and 45 minutes in the afternoon during the day.
Last night DP found me in bed bawling my eyes out because I had been 'at it' for 2 hours and all I had done was feed DD. DP wants me to move her into her own room but I don't see how I will survive that with the feeds!