Not me but husband! I am writing this at 3 in the morning after I woke up for a feed to find my husband cosleeping with our 7 week old after having drunk 2 beers and a bottle of wine. He smokes as well.
He is an excellent father and loves our little girl so much. But my heart almost stopped. We have spoken about this before and when he does a night fed for me he normally puts her to sleep in her cot. I know don't why tonight was different.
I think it is like drink driving - 9 times out of 10 everything will be fine, but the consquences of that 1 time out of 10 are too serious to risk it. I have also said that if he wouldn't drive a car then he shouldn't sleep with the baby. He does drink too much, but that is a whole other thread probably.
Normally I'm a shouter when I get angry, but this time I am too disturbed to do that. I feel like picking up the baby and checking into a hotel tomorrow night to give him taste of what he could lose if he ever does anything so stupid again. Also it could give him time to think about his drinking and disrespecting my wishes as the babies mother. Is this a tad over-dramatic (I can be a dreadful drama queen) and am I over-reacting?
But having said that I guess that I am not really asking for advice, but just looking to off-load. There is no-one that I can talk about this with out of loyality (misguied?) to DH (and embarassment as well ashamed to admit). Thanks for listening/reading.