I can't do this any more

[Aaaaarse]

I really think I've reached the end of my tether. I can't believe I've just written that.

I have an appointment with the GP later this week, I need help. I've not told anyone about it.

I am so tired. So so so so so tired. I am done in.

My night last night

18:30 bath
18:45 tried a bottle. Screamed. Breast fed.
19:00 screaming
19:15 more feeding
19:30 screaming
20:15 eventually asleep in my arms
21:00 went to bed. She woke up and fed until about 21:30
23:30 awake - wouldn't settle, tried to feed hher and she fed for about 2 mins
01:00 awake, feeding
03:30 awake, feeding
05:00 unsettled, rocked her to sleep and she sslept on me
06:00 awake for the day. Hoo-fucking-rah!

she used to sleep so much better (10 - 6!) but the last few weeks have been hideous. Awful :(

She's 14 weeks. The last 2 / 3 weeks have been awful.

I'm trying to make sure she naps during the day, but that involves a lot of screaming / walking with the pram and frankly I am too tired to stand let alone go on endless fucking walks. I'm trying to get her to settle settle - ha ha ha ha - that's not going well. She only goes to sleep with my boob in her mouth, in the pram or being rocked.

I've tried dummies, tried giving her a bottle even though thats not what I want, I am just worn down and worn out.

She's my third baby FFS. I have NO IDEA what to do or how to get her to sleep. I've had no sleep for ages now and I'm beside myself :(

please xcuse typos. cranky baby having nap so rushing.

I need or a break or a miracle :(

Hi there. I'm TTC my first child so have no experience or advice to share, but just wanted to offer you a and say I really feel for you. How old are your other 2 dc? Is there anyone who can help you in the day so can try to catch a couple of hours sleep then?

Why haven't you told anyone about your GP appt? I'd imagine (maybe I'm wrong though, as I've not been there yet myself!) that people would be really understanding about your situation.

Hey, there is nothing worse than sleep deprivation. My DD went through a sleep regression about this time (shes 8 months now) so totally know how you feel. Have you tried lavender in her bath? A friend of mine swears by the baby whisperer and I kind of used it too. Now she wakens a couple of times in the night for a dummy but to be honest I think thats because she is in our room and I have to go to her. Do you have any family that could take her for a night? Even a couple of hours would do you good.

My nightly routine is:

bath 8pm (with lavender)
supper 8.30
bottle and into our room at 9pm
asleep by 9.30ish
she wakes about 2 & 5 for dummy then up at 8am

Also someone told me thier child had bad ears which no one picked up on till she was about 3 so ask to get them checked too. Sorry long post, just keep repeating it will get BETTER!!

OP I feel your pain, I had this with DD2..it was horrendous up every 1 to 1.5 hours in the night and only going back to sleep on the breast. I remember telling my friend how I would stand over her cot and just want to slam her head against the side

I did crack up lost total confidence in my parenting abilities, ended up on ADs (which were a massive help) and at 8 months old DH did controlled crying with her and she improved monumentally.

Up till that point she had been sleeping in our room and would end up in our bed for most of the ngiht and feeding herself to sleep all night and I was knackered.

My DD had reflux which was what caused all our hideous sleeping problems and things went massively downhill from around 12 weeks for us.

My GP was amazing when I went to her with DH in the end I was a mess.

I did use a very helpful sleep forum called babysleepanswers it is worth a look.

Good luck, sorry not to have more advice for you but just wanted to know that i have been where you are.

Can your DH/DP give you a night/week end off so you can catch up on your sleep?
Could your baby be windy/teething or in some sort of pain or discomfort that could explain the fact she is so unsettled?
My heart goes to you.

Do you think she might have reflux? is she particularly windy?
or a prolonged growth spurt?
poor you
we still have two night wake ups at 16 months so kind of see where you are coming from

Thank you all. God I feel like a right moany old cow!

Husband has tried to give her a bottle of formula but she goes bananas. Can't express as just no time and too tired. Will keep trying. Also tried dummy. She gags and spits it out - all types and shapes.

I'm trying hard not to let her fall asleep on my boob and to be consistent with bedtime etc but the constant waking in the night is just so so wearing :(

My other two are 8 and 6. I miss them, I hardly get time with them and when I do I am awful and grumpy and short tempered. No wonder they get excited when they have a weekend at their dad, at least they get a break from me :(

Thanks for the sympathy, I know it will get better.....one day.....

And I've not told anyone about going to the GP as I've had PND twice and just feel gutted to feel like I've got it again....