Hi, this is my first post on any such site but my issue is anything but new. My son was 1 on Valentine's day and I can honestly say that since the middle of November I can count on one hand the number of times that he has slept through the night. Before this time he was such a good sleeper which makes the current time seem like a step backwards in his development and is disappointing.
He currently wakes 3 or 4 times a night in quite a state (purple face, pulling his ears, biting down like a horse on the side of his cot as he stands and stamps on the mattress). I have chosen not to go back to work and I am the one that goes to him when he wakes - my husband has to leave for work early and I could not in good conscious let him drive bleary eyed on the motorway at 7am. When my husband does try to help at the weekend it is of little consequence as he doesn't seem to settle for anyone else but me! My husband thinks that I like this fact and perhaps I do deep down, in fact I hope that he is always able to see me as a source of comfort but at times when I go to him and pick him up to soothe him in the middle of the night I can see him smile in the mirror as he nuzzles into my chest and I feel manipulated. Of course I love my son to the core of my bones but I cannot say that I like him very much at these times. I have fiddled around with his eating timetable to include a supper so I do not believe that he is waking up hungry but a feed is the only thing that seems to placate him sometimes.
Am I going mad or am I just the devil incarnate for having any negative thoughts about him??