Not sure what to call them , and not sure wether they are a pre AF thing or just major stress thing. I seem to be having nightmares that sort of turn into a kind of halucination , were Im semi concious talking or crying out loud experiencing all sorts of nasty things each night (well very early morning). Things like things crawling on me and me trying to push them off and then actually finding myself awake still pushing them off. Or standing in a room and everyone shouting at me and Im trying to shout back but end up crying , dh woke me from this one as I was wailing & shouting really loudly and it scared the living daylights out of him. Its really freaking me out and Im dreading sleep a bit , as you can imagine. On top of this Im also experiencing very fitful sleep , were I awake a lot and find it very hard to calm and go back into sleep. I do try mediatation , lavender oil baths and all sorts ,which get me off to sleep , but then I still awake mind wizzing.
Im walking around like the living dead at mo and cant bare to go to doctors about it as all they give me is AD's or sleeping pills YUCK. I was offered CBT and got sent the letter to send to phyche , but I backed down and couldnt face it and didnt send questionaire letter back. It may have been helpful and helped with my night anxiety, but I dont know if its too late , what could I say in a letter to explain the months and months of delay in replying , especially after almost badgering the gp that I needed CBT to stop him giving me nasty pills !