Can someone help me before I call in supernanny or actually lose my mind? 2 year old who exists on NO sleep and constantly demands breastmilk

[BooBooGlass]

First let me do a massive ARRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
My son has just turned 2, and I am a single parent with noone nearby to help with this. He is still breastfed, though I am desperate for him to stop. It's got to the stage where it is feeling invasive and he wants to feed all the time :(
He has a bed in his own room, which I put him in after his night time feed still awake. He will get up, climb over his stairgate, and come and find me, demanding more milk. I tried shutting the door, which worked for about a week til he worked out hjow to open that as well. SO now we have a situation where he will climb out of bed every hour or so during the night, come into my room and demand milk. I have offered cuddles, a bottle, but nothing works. I am goign mad :( Today I am so sleep deprived I actually feel sick and weak. This has been going on for such a long time, and he is such a handful, that I have no idea hwo to tackle it. My nan has told me to put a lock on his door, though I never would.
But what is the solution? I have a boy who wants milk and no sleep, and I desperately want to stop feelign like a milk machine. I do feel that I have made a rod for my own back, as I was sure he would stop breastfeeding on his own long before now :(

Butterfly, I have told him there's no more, that it's broken but he gets hysterical. He really does love milk, he sings 'milk milk milk' to himself when he is playing but it is at a stage where I feel uncomfortable with it and want some space back. He is a very gung ho boy though, and even at 2 can hurt me if he wants to. Obviously I tell him no, but the thought of dealign with his rages while he weans are part of the reason I've carried on. I have suffered bad PND and I know that's probably a contributing factor as to why I find it so difficult. I can't help feelign the biggest irony is that all of this would be much easier if I weren't so damn tired!

Butteryl, he is quite adept at 'helping himself'. I have considered actually bandaging them down or putting plasters on my nipples, but the thought of taking them off

Butterfly, I am in therapy for an eating disorder at the mo, and it's come up that it's one of the few things I feel I can actually do for him, so yes I do feel bad for saying no. I have an older daughter, and she weaned at just under a year, and tbh she was just a much easier baby. Ds has been one big challenge from day 1, an even bigger shock I think after such an easy baby first time round. I'm heading to the library this afternoon so will have a look for the La Leche League book and anything to do with sleepign really. I do feel at the end of my tether, and while I haven't shouted at him yet, tbh I feel I'm only another night of sleeplessness away from losing my rag :(

Yeah...I have been waiting for the "self-weaning" bit too....hmmm... my beautiful DD is two next week and not really showing signs of going off it at all! She sleeps with me all night / every night and sometimes will latch on up to eight times a night, and shouts out "no! the other one! the other one
! " :-) funny really... but not when you completely knackered in the morning.... apparently, according to experts, the natural age to self-wean is around five...five! Holy sh*!!!! I met a women the other week who said her great aunt had been mother to eleven children and had breastfeed none stop for for thirteen years! Thirteen years!!! I am laughing as I type this...but could probably easily cry too :-) My Nana said she stopped my Dad from feeding by painting something bitter on her nipples...can't remember what it was, but it worked and I think he was about four! I think the short answer is that if you really want to stop, you will just stop, and be prepared for all the crying etc...its just a battle of wills... not sure when I will start mine...not sure who has the strongest will, but I am not going to be feeding her through the bl*dy railings at school!!!! Don't be hard on yourself..you have given him THE VERY BEST START IN LIFE... and he will laugh with you about this stage in his life one day.. Good luck! xxx