Ive had enough, its been fun, but im going

[KittyLetteMeEatAnEasterEgg]

theres alot of stuff going on at the minute, and i posted about some of it and i was accused of making it up because of that pisstake troll thread i did ages ago,

my life is busy at the moment, some good, some bad and some very bad,

and i cannot bear to post about these things that are eating me up inside, i post about these things to get them off my chest and out into the open becasue they are eating me up inside and im terrifed to talk to anyone in real life because if i actully say the thing, if i let them come out of my mouth then they are real and i may just break down, and i know i cant talk to my sisters as they are more fragile than me at the moment and for some of you to think im making them up just makes my stomach churn,

that im making up that my MILs IVF has just failed,

and what about when ive posted about my mums skin cancer? ddo some of you think im making that up too?

yes ive said outragous things in the past, outrageous immature views on relationships that i see now were complete bullshit and my views have grown and changed

i posted about doing a strip at my wedding, outrageous yes, but does it make me unreal and a serial liar??

and finally i made one troll post under a fake name, as a joke, i sat here with my DP and we decided to wind you all up and because of that i feel ive lost your trust

i tried to laught it off, brave it out

i laughed with you

but now

months on - when im going through stuff i never thought i would, things i wouldnt wish on anyone i cant see why yu cant see the difference in me and one troll post i made as a joke

if you cant get over that, then it seems i cant

it hurts so much to have to question everything i write about my life incase i get questioned about its authenticity

i shouldnt have to do that

and im better off away from here,

I don't think you should offer to be your dsil's surrogate, wait til she asks and even then think very carefully. TBH if it was right for you I don't think it would be such an emotive issue.

Just take a break from here and come back with a name change,

xx

how can surrogacy not be an emotive issue?

and im upset over being accused of lying

i had a terrible time once and posted some really grim stuff about my family...and got a few poets that suggested i'd made it up.
I agree, it really hurts.
If you have had some support here and some help and want to stay but are just angry then walk away for a bit and come back.
MN changes day in day out...
i know you have a record for funny/contraversial threads, but don't go, just accpet that some people can be a bit unbelieveing if thoer lives are a bit boring and straight IYSWIM..and ignore ignore ignore. they will have to be off to makle some sandwiches soon, and a nice cup of tea

somedays i feel that i love in a soap opera at home and post bits and bobs on here.... and pften get good support... but sometimes you do feel that people just don't see that other people are different and if they don't believ stuff al,l they need to dop is walk away.
HTH and i hope you feel better soon.

If you need a break, why are you still posting?

Didnt read any of your posts but good luck x

I have to say that you do have to mostly move stop posting when other posters get arsey.

I had a perfectly reasonable question on a thread last night and it got vindictive for absolutely no reason. You have to leave them to it. I put it down to the time of the month. To this day I have no idea why folk want to start fights virtual or otherwise over the stupidist things.

The State of Britain and got nowt better to do I guess.

As far as I read, no-one accused you of lying.

They just said they found it hard to take it seriously.

And if it was someone else posting I'm sure they would have said the same.

It's not every day that someone has such emotive & bizarre things happen to them.

Leave if you must, but I think you are jumping the gun a little. Now you have explained everything, I am sure everyone will understand.

Well you sound freaked out by it which leads me to think that you are not sufficiently sorted in your own head to deal with it. Sorry if that is not what you want to hear.

And get over the lying bit. You do have a history of posting unusual things, and I am not just talking about the trolling. This is because you are obviously an interesting and colourful character with an unusual life. If people are a little sceptical, just take it on the chin. If things said on here are really upsetting you in rl, go. You probably need a break.

I admit I didn't like you to start with as a result of about 3 threads.

BUT

I am growing to like you. I like seeing you around. I think it is possibly fair to say that you have 'tarnished the name KittyLette'. I have grown to like you but others are obviously still wary.

If you feel you are gettin grief because you are 'KittyLette'.
Change names - but don't go.

oh you trolled once and it was funny - don't go and if people say you are lying tell them to fuck off (or whatever non-fouled mouthed people say) NOt everyone will think you are lying - you need us and we need you.

Reconsider.

Kitty..don't go...Mumsnet needs all sorts of people posting to keep it the interesting, controversial, illuminating place that is is at times....change your name is you have to but to be honest I'd just carry on as you...

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Chin up love!