I know I was in the wrong here but he left his computer on and curiosity got the better of me…I checked his internet history and there’s porn on there and a lot of searches “ x celebrity naked porn”.
I was really upset about this as lately he seems to have completely lost interest in sex with me and I don’t feel attractive to him. There’s been a gradual decline in his sex drive and over the last couple of months seems non existent.
I told him I’m feeling a disconnect between us and I had a problem with our lack of sexual intimacy - I approached the porn subject and asked if he’s still getting satisfaction that way. He completely denied it, said his drive in all aspects is completely gone and he doesn’t watch porn anymore. Obviously I couldn’t admit I checked his search history so now I’m in a horrible place where I have proof he’s lied. Why would he be searching porn so much, his history is over the last month and I would say every 2-3 days there was a porn search.
But when he was telling me, I believed him but I know he’s lying? I’m so confused and don’t know how to deal with the situation. When I was pregnant he lost interest in me but he denied it was him not finding me attractive due to bump - I kept telling him I would understand but he was adamant it wasn’t that. Months later he admitted he just wasn’t attracted to me when I was pregnant. So, I know he can lie about this type of thing to save hurting me?
How would you deal with this situation? Should I be annoyed he’s watching porn? I feel like he’s getting off of other women whilst having no desire for me, and now on top of that, I know he’s lying. Why would there be porn searches on his history otherwise. He says he’s embarrassed and has recently done a testosterone test.