Help, I haven't told anyone about this and need to speak to someone, if only anonymously.
I had my first breakout of GH in 2019, have never been diagnosed so I don't know if it's hsv1 or 2. The last time I had sex was five years before that with an ex boyfriend. I don't know if I caught it from him or someone before him but if he had it he didn't tell me. The breakouts have been manageable and I'm not on medication. I was symptom free for almost a year until I had a breakout at the beginning of May, which lasted 3 weeks, one patch after the other and I've now had another one, which has lasted a week. I'm still getting the horrible creeping and tingling sensation, which would indicate there's yet more to come. I can't cope with this and feel sick and disgusted and like crying. It's all I can think about. I'm using tea tree oil which seems to help a little. I'm also shovelling Lysine.
I've also recently potentially met someone, after not being interested in sex for as long as I can remember - not because of GH, but I'm in my late 50s and my interest in it had waned. Seems it's back again though. Nothing's happened, we haven't even kissed, but it's heading in that direction. The thought of having to tell him I have this hideous affliction (yes I know hundreds of millions have it, but many more don't have it, or maybe they do but don't know) makes me shrivel inside. I just can't do it, the rejection would be too much for me. He's the only person I've fancied in a long time, it doesn't happen for me that often, and didn't even when I was younger. He lives abroad so it's all via phone at the moment and we've been having phone sex too but I don't even want to do that now. Being covered in sores down below is not exactly a turn on.
Does anyone know why this might be happening six years down the line when the general consensus is that breakouts are supposed to decrease? Has it happened to you or anyone you know? I want to get under the covers and not come out again. I've seen quite a few posts on here saying GH is no big deal but surely lives must have been ruined because of it.