I am a 34 year old woman, with plenty of sexual experience with both genders although the majority of them happened with men. It's strange because I actually used to (stupidly) sleep around a fair bit when I was younger, but it never made me feel good. I used to think this was because it never meant anything and I wasn't loved. But after having relationships where I was genuinely loved, I didn't enjoy see then either. Even kissing makes me want to brush my teeth and change my toothbrush every few days until I feel clean. To be honest though, kissing is the only part of sex that gives me those germ fears. The rest is just the pure fact that I just don't like it. I thought I was bisexuality for a long time, and I tried it with women too, a few who I genuinely adored as people. But the same thing, I didn't enjoy the nitty gritty. It isn't that I haven't found the right person, or that they aren't doing it the right way. Trust me, it isn't. I just really don't like it. The thing is, occasionally my hormones get the better of me and I do masturbate, which I can orgasm from. But I do this about twice a week, and particularly when my period is due or in progress. But although I am able to do this with results of pleasure, I really don't want that experience with another person, of either genders. I don't even like sharing a bed to sleep, even just cuddling. It really actually annoys me. I never fancy people, and I don't have a famous crush either. I consider myself a somewhat attractive woman, and I do get offers to take me on dates arise. I'm just simply not interested. I am confused as I can self pleasure when my hormones need me to. And I will enjoy it. But I'm just not interested in being with anybody in that way at all. It's taken years after exploring for this penny to finally drop and to realise that I'm clearly assexual. I just feel really upset and like a failure, and flawed, and that I'm missing out on the joy that many humans get to experience. I know i shouldnt be ashamed, but i cant help ut. Does anybody have any advice?